I said why me?
He said: My Mercy is special.
I said: The weight is always heavy.

He said: When weight is light on you, you don’t feel that you need me, so you call on everyone but Me.

You depend on your knowledge.
On your strength.
On your friends, and family.
Although that too, I gave you.
I increased the weight to make you stronger.
To increase your capacity.
To increase your ability.
To make you able to help your self.
And help others.

I am proud of you in front of my angels.
I say to them: Look. Look at my Servant

Crying to me.
Broken before me.
Worshipping me.
My servant never saw me, but He believes in Me.
I gave him free will, and he chose to worship Me.
He fought with himself, and his desires for Me.
He believes that He has a Merciful Lord he can cry to.
Be broken to.
Listen to His tears.
See Him on dark nights.
That’s My Servant, and He believes in Me.”

I said: oh God, give me more tears. Break me.

Humiliate me. Humble me. Rip me into pieces. Do as you please with me. 
Make me a good servant in my worship to You. 
Help me remember Your name. 

Help me mention You. Help me thank You, and think of You. 

Help me say the truth. Help me be patient. 
As long as You are not angry with me, I will never complain.
I will bear. I will endure. 

He said what ever you want to say, I already know. 
I know you will endure.

I made you. And I will not put weight on you that you can’t handle. 

Remember, I made weight too. 
When you called upon me, it was Me calling you. 

When you thought of me, I was thinking of you. 

When you walked to me, I ran to you. 
When you were lost, I guided you. 

When you were an orphan, I sheltered you. 
When you felt strong, I showed you My Greatness.  
When you felt weak, I showed you my Mercy. 
You think I am far in the sky, but I Am nearer to you, than you to yourself. 
Call upon me, I will respond. I will respond. I will respond.