Since I can remember, I just wanted to be happy. That’s all. But the happiness I was looking for was never ever fulfilled. And, so I started my search by bringing my outlook inwards, and that brought me to ask two questions :What is Happiness, and what is sadness?
How does my brain interpret happiness, and sadness?I heard in a lecture for Dr: Mohammed Ratib Nabulsi that part of God’s creation are Objects, Plants, Animals, and Humans.Objects: have volume and shape
Plants: have volume, shape, but they grow
Animals: have volume, shape, they grow, but they move
Humans: have volume, shape, they grow, they move, but they think

So to practice my humanity, I started to think.

And, so I had viewed a show on planet earth that showed how some of the sea creatures have a defense mechanism that is turned on at times they sense danger.

And I believe that Humans as well have a defense mechanism that is turned on at times that they sense danger.

A danger that their happiness will be taken away.

I feel that this process happens because they had set the standard for “Happiness”, based upon societal, and environmental dictation of what happiness should be, and it became a habitual behavior that is implanted in their process of thinking, and acts as an instant internal response that translates in the brain as “Happiness”.

But, they have no control over it, because it is an instant internal response. Which then can lead to anger, depression, anxiety, and many other ill feelings.

I can’t help but to feel from my experiences that this type of Happiness is so temporary, and is always followed by sadness, or loneliness.

I feel that because this type of happiness always required other people. material. gatherings, once this gathering is finished, once the material is used. And once people are gone, sadness kept on coming back. again, and again in a form of overwhelming sadness, with out contentment. With out acceptance.

I feel as though there’s another way to find happiness, and that’s not the same happiness that society dictates to us, but is the type that is the essence of happiness. The root of happiness.

I mean, isn’t happiness being content with what you are?, where you are?, what you have?, content In acceptance?.

And doesn’t that make Happiness a perspective that differs from one person to another, similar to temperaments, and identity?.

Hypothetically speaking, if our human body determines that it wants to live in a state of sadness. Wouldn’t that act as a self defense mechanism that will protect us from “Happiness”, (by societal standards) to be taken away from us?.

I mean how can you take away Happiness from someone who is not feeling this type happiness, but rather feeling content in the sadness that they feel, that they are actually happy in sadness. Or accepting to the sadness.

What I am trying to say, is that if you are accepting to the sadness that you feel, you can be content, and that could bring you internal peace, which will cause you to feel a certain type of unique happiness.

I am not saying that this is an easy process, but what I am saying is that I am personally working on improving my self to this level, and I view a light, and wanted to share my experience with you, and will keep you updated on my progress in God willing!