Month: January 2015

A LIST OF GOOD VALUES TO ACT UPON

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Reading good books… Beneficence… Fulfillment of promise… Cleanliness… Taking care of health… Controlling anger… Co-operation… Courage… Charity… Decency… Good treatment of relatives… Feeding the hungry… Care of the poor… Care of the sick… Love… Sympathy… Compassion… Forgiveness… Gratefulness… Modesty… Justice… Good treatment of parents… Good treatment of neighbors… Patience… Moderation… Sincerity… Making peace between people… Humor… Unselfishness.

 Faith….Hope… Optimism…Humility… Gentleness… Honesty… Tolerance…Respect…Wisdom… Loyalty… Perseverance

Addictions!

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Most humans had been conditioned to do things. Some on a conscious level, and others, unconscious. Thinking is some thing humans do, so it’s included.

In our incognito thinking at times we find many answers that our brain already knows, but we are just unconscious of, because we are in a sphere. In our mind, we are the subject that we are focusing on, using our only means, our “Abused Mind”, to find a solution of how to fix.

In my humble opinion, a person who had an abused mind set, by parents, or their surrounding environment had been psychologically deformed. A Woman who had been raped, had been psychologically deformed. A Man who had been in the military, trained to kill, and exposed to war wounds, had been psychologically deformed.

When I say psychologically deformed, I mean that relative to an organic growth.

Abuse of any kind is a crime, and it is oppression. And it deforms our human brain, psychologically.

This is a fact. Whether we accept it or not, because in that case, we become “Unqualified” to determine our psychological health state, because the only means we have to use to determine our state of mind, is deformed. So that means that the root is deformed. And when we have a deformed root, anything we grow or build on it, will be deformed.

“Decorating a Mc Donalds, will not make it healthy. The only solution to make it healthy is to destroy the Mc Donalds, and build a Whole Foods ” I’m sure there are other solutions, please don’t quote me on this.

What I mean to say is , if exposure to this type of abuse, whether one experienced it themselves, or viewed another person experiencing it, when they are at an age where they had not been formed, yet. They had not grown yet , then there will Not be a healthy self that ever existed, so that person can’t return to their healthy self.

I think we now have a clear equation, that we have a subject, and that subject we both agree had been deformed.

Dr: Hadeil: says,  “I itch to verbalize a solution as I am writing this. Because people who are abused are in need of a solution, and yet inner compassion and self acceptance can never be replaced by lectures, quotes and quick fixes.”.

First part of a solution is acknowledgment. So, even if the subject has 50 degrees, and 70 Ph, d’s, and be the most intelligent person in the world. They still need to acknowledge, and admit that they are in need for help. Then help will begin to come.

Of-course it’s not an easy route, and of-course there will be a million reasons and excuses to fall off.

So the subject needs to be prepared, and ready to submit before the recovery process can even begins.

But before we go into the recovery process, let’s build some more solid foundations on understanding. and comprehending the magnitude of what we speak of.

It’s interesting that Dr: Hadeil had distinguished between the object of addiction, and the behavior of addiction. And acknowledged that it isn’t the object of addiction that is the problem, but it’s the behavior of addiction. And to me that’s like backing up your microscope to see the larger picture.

Dr: Hadeil: says: “In Psychological terms, the schedule of reinforcement is how praise or positive regard is administered and in this case because it corresponds to an intermittent schedule of reinforcement, much like gambling, the child’s behavior has nothing to do with the reward that they so desperately crave. The addiction is established when the child becomes compulsive in his search for the parents’ approval rightfully so which he never gets or gets at the whims of the parent.”

And in her words there’s a key. The problem is not in what we are addicted to, the problem is with our behavior. Our compulsive behavior is deformed. {The addiction is established when the child becomes compulsive in his search for the parents’ approval rightfully so which he never gets or gets at the whims of the parent.}

This tells me that a person who is addicted to cigarette smoking, although the physical addiction to the nicotine is valid and requires its share , but psychologically is not really addicted to the cigarette smoking, but is addicted to having an addictive behavior. So, even if it’s not the cigarette, there will be another addiction they will find.

Similar to a person who is addicted to heroine, while they are addicted to the substance psychically, but the real addiction is the psychological one, and the way it makes them feel.

But does that mean that it is only people who are addicted to substances who are the only addicts?. I say, Nope.

Addictions come in a physical, mental, and emotional forms.

And a person who has an addictive behavior, is a person who can have an addictive problem , even if they had never gambled, never smoked cigarettes, drank alcohol, or taken drugs. It could be workaholic, or shopaholic, etc…

They could have an emotional addictive behavior, where they get addicted to people. And this is when relationships with people become deformed, when people are viewed as objects, rather than people, and because of the influence of our mind over our physicality, emotions and spirituality, there’s a very very good chance that we are totally deformed, as Dr: Damian mentions. In which case, a new personality needs to be built.

And I personally think that it’s less effective to go deep into tangents of receiving, giving, and accepting love, abuse, forgiveness, or any other topic for that matter, before we first build a new personality, in a new mind. Because once we do, all past topics will be detoxified, altered, anew, and a new personality will be born. Human to human. Soul to soul. Heart to heart.

This feels like a mission to Mars. It is a one way ticket. There’s no coming back.

American Muslim Double Personality

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“Our Youth” I just sincerely want to tell you. It’s not your fault.

I took the time to write this, because I feel that this could be the voice of many people who are voiceless. Not because they do not have a voice, but because no matter what they tell you, or how much they scream, many of you will still judge them.

White, Black, Latin, Hispanic, Asian, Jewish, Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, Atheists, etc…

I pray that this message will reach the heart of one person who is able to raise their voice for those who are voiceless.

As a Muslim who grew up, and still living in America, I can share with you some of my experiences. Perhaps to shed some light on some of the issues the Muslim, and all conservative religion, ideology, morally influenced Youth have to face while growing up in this country.

You grow up in a house, where you view your father, and mother praying to God.
Some of the things You are told that you are not allowed to have a girlfriend, drink alcohol, gamble, or do drugs.

Some of the things You are told that you are not allowed to deposit money in a savings account if it will accumulate “interest”.

For a male: Some of the things you are told that you have to grow your beard, pray five times a day, avoid relations with females. For a female: Some of the things you are told you have to wear your head cover, avoid relations with males, learn how to cook, clean, so when you get married you can take care of your house.

Fathers and mothers of the first generation who immigrated to America;

Usually, normally a male figure is the masculine, the protector. The bread winner. The problem solver. The head of the house. The one who all responsibility falls upon to keep a roof over the family’s head. The one who sits up at night thinking of how to make ends meet.  While mostly attending to outer home issues.

And, usually, normally a female figure is the feminine, sensitive, emotional, in the kitchen cooking, raising children, doing laundry, while mostly attending to inner home issues.

And I fully respect all people, and all ideologies although I may not agree with them, but if this is how you want to live your life, and this is what works for you, then it’s your decision.

Second generations of fathers and mothers who were born in the US, or grew up in the US, usually are trapped in between their family as a whole, and the American society as a whole.

And, while viewing both, they realize that their family are so used to their cultural, religious ideologies, and the American society as a whole are not completely opposing to those ideologies, but do not necessarily practice the formality with the same level of conservatism.

The second generation attend to American Public schooling system. They have friends who have girlfriends, drink alcohol, do drugs, and gamble. And I respect that as well. If this is how you want to live your life, then It’s your decision.

They have friends who have a male/female relationship that is non-platonic, while the family of the second generation are totally opposing to having any sort of communication between a male and a female, unless it is on a professional level, or at a level of urgency that requires a relationship to be made. Ie: donations, Islamic events, etc…

This of course is just touching base on some of the fundamental differences a Muslim Youth usually experience while they try to simply do what they assume is the right thing.

What I had learned is that a Human brain usually has the option to resist “oppression”, but if the oppressive situation is overwhelming then the sub-conscious of the human brain is able to develop a “survival strategy”, not to gain or lose anything, but to simply survive, and adapt to any situation.

And what I had learned is that if the human brain finds transgression by any individual, entity, community, and society as a whole, including family in regards  to the way they “should” think, act, perform, live their every day life, then they will be faced with two options.

Either they respond with gravitating towards what seems easier(in which case, would be the lack of resistance to human needs, wants, and desires), or develop a strategy that will allow them to survive through this journey by satisfying either both sides. Their family, and their environment/ society. Ie “Friends, colleagues, school mates, social, and business partners, etc…

And at times, when they are viewed with the naked eye by either side of the “extremists”, or even by the modernists they could be looked upon as hypocrites. Or double faced, and some people with a psychological background might even diagnose them with a “Double Personality disorder”.

But there’s a reason that God did not ask anyone to judge anyone. There’s a reason of why God had reserved Judgment for Himself.  There’s a reason that God asked every single person who believes in Him to mind your own business. There’s a reason of why God had commanded those who believe in Him to avoid negative assumptions. Indeed, in some assumption is sin.

Because you know something, no one appreciates being called a hypocrite, and there are many people who are introverts, and will never sit there and try to explain to you of why they do what they do. Because either way there will be someone who makes a negative assumption of them.

If they are with a Muslim crowd, they will be judged that they are too “Americanized”, and if they are with an American crowd, they will be judged that they are too” Conservative, or even extreme”

And this at times makes people feel that they are a second class citizen. It makes people feel that they have to defend them selves for having to do double the work on them selves, by building two personalities, and learning how to make both sides happy. Just to survive. Just for things to run smooth. Just for peace to exist. Just to avoid any conflicts.

And the worse part is, people of this type usually end up not making anyone happy, nor do they gain acceptance by either side, and that’s just a shame. It’s a shame that we are living millions of years after the first human was Created, and we are still too ignorant to communicate in an intellectual manner that will allow us to receive the respect for the decisions we make in our life, no matter what they are. WordPress Post

I say the words “I trust God”, but do I really? 3-6-14

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In the name of Our Lord;

When I was in my teens I used to hate it when someone informs me of something that I knew was the truth.

I used to hate it, because I learned that God only judges me for words that I understood. For something that I comprehend. For words that I had acknowledged clearly.

I used to hate it, because I did not want to be informed. I did not want to be informed because I wanted to continue doing what I thought was fun with out having to feel guilty about it.

So I used to avoid people who give me advises that were inconvenient for me.

As I was ageing, some of the information stayed in my brain, and started to bother me. It bothered me because I only acknowledged the information, but I was not implementing them into my life, except of what is convenient for me.

So the storm started. One day I would implement the information that I knew, and another day I wouldn’t. And, I felt that I was addicted to my life style. I was addicted to my habits. Some of my habits were voluntary and others were involuntary. Some of my habits were responses that I thought of in my brain, and others were simply internal, and instant.

It was very confusing. It was very scary not to have control over this miraculous machine(my body)(my brain)

They told me not to worry about it. They said, when you get older you will understand.

But then I would see older people, who are still confused in life. I would see older people who are still doing things carelessly. I would see older people who still do not have control over their actions, and reactions.

It was only when I had learned that ageing has nothing to do with growing. It was only when I had learned that the circumstances in life are out of my control, but my own responses are what I can gain control over. My own responses, responding to different situations. Reacting toward any action, is what I really need to work on.

So, I put my own self under the microscope, by keeping track of the date, and time of my responses, and studying my own behavior. I mean I am the subject that I am trying to figure out, and I always have me with me. So that was in a way, convenient for me.

Then I realized that as a human, I was taught that everything should have a title, in order for me to recognize it. A Chair is called a chair, because when I hear the word chair, I can visualize a chair, and know that we are talking about a chair. You get the point!

Fine, but then when it was time to learn about God, I had a major issue.

You see, growing up with a family who teach you to pray, and teach you that you should love God more than anything else!

Growing up with a family who teach you that You should love God, more than your own Mother and father, then I had a major issue.

I had a major issue, because I am not the type of person who say I love God more than my Mother and Father, if I do not feel it in my heart.

I had a major issue, because even if all the powers of the world are trying to convince me to love someone that I do not love, I will refuse to love them, even if it cost me my life.

Perhaps, it is another habit. Perhaps it is a foundation of principles. I was willing to change my habits, but I refuse to change my principles. I am willing to change the habits that I am convinced that I need to change, but I am not willing to change habits that I am unconvinced that they need to change.

And, there are certain habits of mine that I am happy that I have. I feel that they are my essential elements. I will fight for those habits. I will even fight against my self to keep them. I love them, and they make me love my self. Appreciate my self. I appreciate my self, because I know what I feel, and I know how precious my heart is. And that only happened when I had met people who did not seem to have my heart. Who did not seem to have those essential principles that I live my entire life by.

And I thank God every day for making me, me. To the point that at times I feel arrogant, but I know that I am not, and I will not allow my self to convince myself that I am, because appreciating my self taught me how to connect with my self. With my inner self, to find comfort in my own body. To find comfort in my own skin.

And, it was only when I had appreciated having my body, my heart, my intuitions, my vision, and all of those beautiful tools that God had provided me with, that I was able to appreciate God, for giving me so much that he did not give others. For allowing me to view the gifts that He had given me, and appreciate Him for them.

I appreciate God for allowing me to be open-minded enough to acknowledge that the problem in my life, are not the circumstances, it is not the people, it is not those who hurt me. It is not those who do not like me. It is not that I am not lucky. It is not because I am not perfect. It is not because I sinned. It is not because I made mistakes. I am supposed to as a human to make mistakes. I am supposed to fail. I am supposed to hurt.

But the major problem in my life, were my own responses toward different situations. It was the way I reacted. Although I may have had the right to react, but in the end, it really is not about who is right and who is wrong. It is about my own responses. It is about being right, and forgiving. It is about having power, and not abusing it. It is about seeing this life as a privilege from God, and not a right that Is my right to have.

It is about acknowledging that I did not exist physically before my birth, nor will I exist physically after my death. It is about we are born, we die, and everything in between is simply our responses toward different situations.

It is about growing your mind. It is about adding an additional piece of beneficial information into your brain, consistently. A beneficial piece that you know will grow you. Re-frame you. Reshape you. Revise your outlook inward. Instead of trying to change people, change your self.

Know that you can not expect someone to come and save you. Know that no matter how much any person loves you, they simply have abilities, that they can’t give all of their love to you. Know that it is not a person with a deceased mother who is a true orphan, but a person who does not have a connection with God.

But, how can my brain know anything about God, if my brain was not designed to acknowledge Him in a way that my brain would define as “Realistic”. Well that was when I realized that to believe in the ultimate love, it doesn’t initiate in the brain. Rather it initiates inside the heart. You will feel the will to learn something. To know about something. To follow some one. To use your brain, your hands, your feet, and all of the tools you have to pursue this ultimate love!

And, as I started learning about God, I had realized that It was me who had neglected learning about God, because my brain interpreted Him as physical nothingness, but that does not degrade who He is. It only shows me that I do not have the ability to surround Him in my knowledge. It only shows me my own nothingness, and His greatness.

And as I was reading the noble Quran, I ran into a verse that while contemplating on, had explained everything to me.

” They have not appraised Allah with true appraisal, while the earth entirely will be [within] His grip on the Day of Resurrection, and the heavens will be folded in His right hand. Exalted is He and high above what they associate with Him.” 39:67

And to put that verse into implementation, if I truly mean it when I say “I trust Allah”, I would have to first learn how to Appraise or value Allah swt, and look at Him, while viewing His Greatness, and my own nothingness, and from there I started to gain humility before Him. Submission to Him.

Realize that He did not force me to submit to Him. Rather He had given me the right to reject Him. But it is only because He had allowed me to view how thankful I am to Him. How much gratitude I feel inside of my heart toward Him. How much He had given me with out expecting anything in return.

I had learned through His Majestic attributes how powerful He is. How High He is. How He has so much power that He can make me, and every one not exist in a blink of an eye. Yet, He does not “Forcefully” obligate me to worship Him. Rather He gives, and gives, and gives, and He is patient with me. I sin, and I sin, and I sin, and I am always asking Him for more. He gives me with out expecting anything in return. I do not appraise Him the way I should, and I beg Him for more.

I thank Him for not practicing “His fairness only” with me. I thank Him for not practicing “His Justice only” with me.

Rather, He uses all of His attributes of Mercy, and Beauty. He uses all of His attributes of Wisdom, and Knowledge, and Generosity!

And, now that I had acknowledged this information, I feel responsible to pursue the road of Knowledge, to learn more about Him, and to go into this passion of mine. This journey that is opening up so many doors for me. So many doors that I had not seen before, and once I walk through them, I view so many pearls that touch my heart. So many moments, irreplaceable.

And I pray to Him that He surrounds me with people He loves, and who Love Him.

I pray to Him that He surrounds me by those who will teach me, grow me. I pray to Him that He allows my heart to receive from them. I pray to Him that He chooses what is best for me and them, in regards to to this world and the next. And, to allow me, and them accept what He had chosen for us!

When Moses’s mother loved Moses, He commanded her to throw Him in the river.
When Abraham loved His son, He commanded Him to slaughter him
When Moses relied on His stick, He commanded Him to throw it.

Moses’s Mother, did not throw Him in the river, because She did not love Him.
Abraham did not intend to slaughter his son because He did not love Him.
Moses did not throw the stick, because He did not need it.

It was admitting defeat. It was admitting to Allah that You are Great, and we are nothing with out You.

All the Prophets admitted defeat., and obeyed, because their ultimate trust is in Allah

And now I will throw what I love, and need in the river, and admit full defeat. Ya Allah, I submit!

Short conversation with the Sun 2-24-14

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February 24, 2014 at 5:58pm

I said, O Sun, I so appreciate you. You give your light to plants, animals, and humans.

You give your light even to a rock.

With a tear falling, from her eye, down her cheek, she whispered: Since the beginning, I give my light to plants, animals, and most humanity but none of them ever thanked who created me, for me.

They never appreciated me. never even thought of me.  After they got what they needed from me, they went on with their lives, each in a direction, while walking under my shade, and not acknowledging me.

They all thought of the light that I give to them, because they needed that light to survive, to be alive.

Little did they know that I was giving them life. My life. I was burning my self to death, just to give them their life, to live, and be alive.

It was only you who thought of me, acknowledged me, felt me, empathized with me, appreciated me, thanked He who created me for my presence, prayed to He who created me to preserve me.

But don’t let my words make you lose your focus, on why you’re here;

My light will give you life, but if you dwell under my light, or come near me, you will die.
God created me, and I know my worth. He did not exclude my light for you, there are others who need my light to live too.

Although I am the only Sun you see, your only source of light, I must give my light to all plants, animals, and the rest of humanity.

She: So, although in a sense, you belong to me, and I appreciate you, I belong to all plants, animals, and humanity, Do you think you can accept that?.

Me: Overwhelmed, humiliated, humbled, broken, shocked, put in check, set in place, with out any hesitation, Dominated, and with full confidence, I screamed lightly, gently, I accept. I accept. “I belong to you, and only you.
You, to all that exists”.

She: Sigh!

Living in Sadness is Happiness 2-20-14

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I experienced continuous sadness, and was always in the search for happiness.
Since I can remember, I just wanted to be happy. That’s all. But the happiness I was looking for was never ever fulfilled. And, so I started my search by bringing my outlook inwards, and that brought me to ask two questions :What is Happiness, and what is sadness?
How does my brain interpret happiness, and sadness?I heard in a lecture for Dr: Mohammed Ratib Nabulsi that part of God’s creation are Objects, Plants, Animals, and Humans.Objects: have volume and shape
Plants: have volume, shape, but they grow
Animals: have volume, shape, they grow, but they move
Humans: have volume, shape, they grow, they move, but they think

So to practice my humanity, I started to think.

And, so I had viewed a show on planet earth that showed how some of the sea creatures have a defense mechanism that is turned on at times they sense danger.

And I believe that Humans as well have a defense mechanism that is turned on at times that they sense danger.

A danger that their happiness will be taken away.

I feel that this process happens because they had set the standard for “Happiness”, based upon societal, and environmental dictation of what happiness should be, and it became a habitual behavior that is implanted in their process of thinking, and acts as an instant internal response that translates in the brain as “Happiness”.

But, they have no control over it, because it is an instant internal response. Which then can lead to anger, depression, anxiety, and many other ill feelings.

I can’t help but to feel from my experiences that this type of Happiness is so temporary, and is always followed by sadness, or loneliness.

I feel that because this type of happiness always required other people. material. gatherings, once this gathering is finished, once the material is used. And once people are gone, sadness kept on coming back. again, and again in a form of overwhelming sadness, with out contentment. With out acceptance.

I feel as though there’s another way to find happiness, and that’s not the same happiness that society dictates to us, but is the type that is the essence of happiness. The root of happiness.

I mean, isn’t happiness being content with what you are?, where you are?, what you have?, content In acceptance?.

And doesn’t that make Happiness a perspective that differs from one person to another, similar to temperaments, and identity?.

Hypothetically speaking, if our human body determines that it wants to live in a state of sadness. Wouldn’t that act as a self defense mechanism that will protect us from “Happiness”, (by societal standards) to be taken away from us?.

I mean how can you take away Happiness from someone who is not feeling this type happiness, but rather feeling content in the sadness that they feel, that they are actually happy in sadness. Or accepting to the sadness.

What I am trying to say, is that if you are accepting to the sadness that you feel, you can be content, and that could bring you internal peace, which will cause you to feel a certain type of unique happiness.

I am not saying that this is an easy process, but what I am saying is that I am personally working on improving my self to this level, and I view a light, and wanted to share my experience with you, and will keep you updated on my progress in God willing!

Wisdom from Satan 2-22-14

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You always damn satan. You always see satan as the enemy. I did too.
But does that mean that we can’t gain wisdom even from an enemy?
Does that mean that just because we view someone as the enemy we can not learn from them?

Through my journey in life, I had many friends, and partners who had influenced my decision making.

Especially those who I gave my heart to. Those I love. Because to me, Love meant to be obedient to the one you love. To fear their dissatisfaction.

And, I wanted to make them happy. And it felt right.

The only issue is, when we lose control of our selves. When we lose control of our own decision making. When we lose control over what we believe is the right thing to do, for us.

Each one of us has a different process of thinking, and a different perspective of what is right for them, so this is not a general trend. Rather, it is my own strategy of viewing things, that seems to me pretty clear.

Allah swt strikes an example in the noble Quran to remind those who “Listen”, and “Think”. He says;

“[Their allies deceived them] like the example of Satan when he says to man, “Disbelieve.” But when he disbelieves, he says, “Indeed, I am disassociated from you. Indeed, I fear Allah , Lord of the worlds.” 59:16

In this example I view a few main points that need to be microscope-ed.

1* Allah swt compares those who deceive another human to satan.

2* Satan seduces man to disbelieve. Similar to what most of societal temptations implode, and impose upon Humans today.

3*Every Human will Disassociate them selves from you on the day of resurrection. Satan will disassociate him self from you. And He will say “Indeed, I fear Allah, Lord of the worlds”.

Even satan will admit that Allah is the Lord of the worlds.

And, I ask you, isn’t the story of Satan something we can learn from?

I think we can. You see, I feel that Wisdom can be learnt from anyone, and anything.

You just have to keep your eyes open.

And, not allow the barrier of enmity. Not allow the barrier of dislike. Not allow the barrier of disagreement. Not allow our selves to close doors!

Not allow our own close mindedness, not allow us to receive information that can be beneficial to us during our journey.

Wisdom from satan. I am thankful to Allah for creating satan, other wise we wouldn’t  have known this story that can change our lives. And turn our outlook inward.

View our own behavior. View our own responses towards different situations that come along during our journey.

And remember if we can learn wisdom from Satan, which is considered by most of Major religions of the world to be the “Enemy”” Devil”, Don’t you think you can learn wisdom from those who are trying to the best of their ability to obey God?.

We are humans, and we make mistakes. Forgive, learn, be kind, look for quality life, not quantity life.

Every moment is a part of your life. Do not let any moment be used to envy,  hold grudges, hate, be greedy, or allow negative thoughts to enter your process of thinking.

Think well of God.

Think well of people.

Keep your self open to learn, and know that there is an opportunity to learn every day.

In every moment.

In every situation.

Be thankful to God, even when you do not directly view the light.

Because Your heart have been beating since the moment you were born, until the moment you die, while you do not see it, not responsible for it, and in many cases you’re not aware of it. You just have to trust the process of the One who Created. Trust!

Pride can be a veil between you and your Creator 2-25-14

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Pride in Religion. Pride in nationality. Pride in lineage. Pride in self. Pride in knowledge. Pride in age. Pride in ignorance.  Pride in health. Pride in beauty. Pride in money.  Pride in anything.
I can’t help but to view the eternal sin Iblis/Satan committed to receive the wrath of The Lord.His pride caused him arrogance. Arrogance was the sin,but pride was the reason for the sin.

I read many verses in the noble Quran about this issue, but it wasn’t until I started to learn to implant it into my physical life that I was able to view the weight that comes with letting pride go.

It is not an easy task, and it does require strength. Strength of knowing who you are, and what you’re worth.

Strength in seeing your own insignificance, and God’s Greatness.

It was only when I had viewed God’s Greatness that I was able to let go of pride over any other creation. All other creation.

And as God mentions in the noble Quran;

“Indeed, those who are near your Lord are not prevented by arrogance from His worship, and they exalt Him, and to Him they prostrate.” 7:206

And, so in this verse I view an illustration of what arrogance prevents from “Arrogance prevents His worship”

I am not surprised that so many verses refer to Arrogance, and in my humble opinion Arrogance is the result of “Pride”.

I do firmly believe that “Arrogance” is the feeder of all ill feelings.

“Arrogance” is the home of all negative thoughts, and feelings.

“Pride” is the tool that leads to arrogance. Pride is a disease. It is a sickness. It is a virus that once implanted inside the heart, no matter how small it is. It grows, and grows just like a cancer, until if fills the heart.

I don’t understand how I can have pride in anything after I acknowledge my own insignificance, and  I read a verse in the noble Quran that states;

“And to Allah prostrates whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth of creatures, and the angels [as well], and they are not arrogant.” 16:49

If everything that exists Prostrates to God, including His angels. Including mountains, seas, trees, planets, the Sun, and the Moon. The water, and the air. Every molecule, and particle. Who am I not to have pride. Who am I to be Arrogant.

What is God teaching by prostrating to Him five times a day?. Isn’t humility?. Isn’t it being humble?.

If I prostrate to God with sincerity, don’t you think that my heart will be softened?. Don’t you think that it will get rid of “Pride”?.

Did not Prophet Mohammed Pbuh say “Leave it, For it stinks, when asked about having pride in Tribalism?”

{Leave it! It stinks� these are the words of the noble Prophet [SLAWS] to TRIBALISM. Al-bukhari and others narrated from Jabir that �We were one day on an expedition, then a man from the Muhajireen beat another man from the Ansar, then the man from the Ansar shouted [calling his folks] : Oh, Ansar!!! And Likewise the man from Muhajireen shouted : Oh, Muhajireen !!! When the Prophet heard that he said : �What a call of the Dark ages� He was then told that a man from Muhajireen beats another from the Ansar, then he added : �Leave it! It stinks� �}

It stinks. Leave it.

Depart Pride.
Asylum from Pride.
Emigrate from Pride.

For Wallahi Pride is a veil between you and your Creator. Wallahi nothing is killing us more than Pride.

For you see, Pride lives in the heart, and pride is an action of Iblis/ Satan. That was His sin. His only eternal Sin. His Ultimate Sin.

Leave it. If you are a scholar, do not allow your knowledge give you pride.
If you belong to a nation, do not allow that nation to give you pride.
If you are a mother, do not allow your motherhood give you pride.
If you are a father, do not allow your fatherhood give you pride.
If you are a Muslim do not allow your Muslimhood give you pride.
If you are a Christian do not allow your Christanhood give you pride.
If you are a rich, do not allow your money to give you pride.
If you are healthy, do not allow your health to give you pride.

What ever you are, and what ever you have, do not allow it to give you pride. And, remember what God revealed in the Quran;

” O mankind! We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise each other). Verily the most honored of you in the sight of God is (he who is) the most righteous of you. And God has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things). 49:13

God had created us to get to know one another. To get to meet eachother. Not to have pride over one another.

Wallahi there is no bigger sin than Arrogance.

Even if you laugh at each other, or mock each other, God mentions this in the Quran, and says;

“O ye who believe! Let not some men among you laugh at others: it may be that the (latter) are better than the (former): nor let some women laugh at others: it may be that the (latter) are better than the (former): nor defame nor be sarcastic to each other, nor call each other by (offensive) nicknames: ill seeming is a name connoting wickedness, (to be used of one) after he has believed: and those who do not desist are (indeed) doing wrong”49:11

This verse by its self shows me how much Allah swt despises, nicknames calling, laughing at each other, sarcasm, Tribalism.

There’s a high significance in this topic, that I feel is mostly neglected, and abused.

And, for those who are suspicious, God says;

” O ye who believe! Avoid suspicion as much (as possible): for suspicion is some cases is a sin: and spy not on each other, nor speak ill of each other behind their backs. Would any of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother? Nay, ye would abhor it But fear God: for God is Oft Returning, Most Merciful”.49:12

In-conclusion, If you do Good, you are doing good for your self. And, if you do bad, you are doing bad for your selves. And, we will all be presented to our Lord Each one by them selves. For we were born alone, and we will die alone, and we will be presented infront of our Lord alone.

This is a reminder for my self, and who ever reads this. Ya Allah be my witness that I had delivered the message. may He heal every broken!. And extract from our hearts every ill feeling, and guide us with His Light to return back home with a sound heart!

Be Conscious while Giving!

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Giving is not always the same. Just because you Give, it doesn’t necessarily mean that you are helping. Giving requires wisdom, and once this wisdom is learned, then giving will have many forms. Then you will be able to give in many different ways.

Because as soon as some people that I know hear the word Give in the Masjid, they think it’s time for donations. They link it to financials automatically.

But when you are sincere about giving, it comes from the heart. And then you feel sincerity. And then others hearts start receiving signals of sincerity, so they receive comfort.

And, Giving in my humble opinion starts with the self. Give your self your rest. Give your self your health. Give your self your attention. Give your self the acknowledgement of your worth, until you fill your self. Once you are filled, then you start overflowing… 

I had learned that when you do good to someone, that someone ends up doing the same good to someone else, feeling the need to give back for what they had been given. Ultimately it’s God who allows our hearts to feel the need to give, because He is The Giver. So, He gives through us, by guiding our hearts.

Please do good to someone that you don’t have to do good for, or you don’t need to do good for. You never know what type of impact you will make in that persons life.

At times, it is important to acknowledge what you give, and to whom you are giving. Because if someone is dealing with a Tragic, or is Traumatized, (Although you may mean well), it is not appropriate to give this person a Religious Advice, or Brain knowledge.

For Example: A girl who had been raped, does not need an Advice, or brain knowledge.

She does not need Religious teachings, and well meaning critics. She needs a hug. She needs compassion. She needs your presence. She needs your attention. She simply needs you to be there. She wants to cry while you hug her. She wants to Grieve! Just Grieve! Just closure! Just be there, with sincere emotions, and good intentions!

The above is an illustrative example to present one type of Traumatic experience. There are many. Some may be known to us, and some may never be known. Because Traumatic experiences can be internal, while you have no idea, from the external view. And so, I ask you to please have wisdom while you are giving, Learn about the person, and the situation, and think of the kindest, bestest way to give, while being conscious of their feelings.

And remember how Prophet Mohammed was with people, while reading this quick short story;

The Prophet (pbuh) was aware of the details of every single companion’s social status and managed to deal with every one according to his circumstances. Once a poor man invited the Prophet and served him vinegar. The Prophet (peace be upon him) comforted him and said:

“The best condiment is vinegar.” (Muslim)

This reaction reflects the Prophet’s wisdom. He did not want to hurt the man’s feeling because of his poor condition.

Give, may Allah give you!

To all Children, I’m Sorry!

/ Mohammed. F. Alhomsi / Leave a comment

Tonight, I would like to apologies to all Children! 

I’m sorry to tell you that it’s not animals, or trees. It’s not fish, or the seas. It’s not the mountains, or spiders who are destroying the only planet you have to live on.

It’s many Humans

I’m sorry that ‘most’ of us, as a society: Muslims, Christians, Jews, Buddhist, etc, are not mature enough to respect each-other, work together to bring you a peaceful world. 

I’m sorry that everyday you will have to wake up to hear the news about wars, killings, slaughter, and rape.

I’m sorry that everyday you have to wake up to hear the news about robberies, murders, kidnappings, and shootings.

I’m sorry to bring you a world that is not safe; at work, in the park, in a school, in the street, or not even at home.

I’m sorry to bring you to a world where there’s not much human communication, but machines to self checkout, ez-pass, and an abused interactive virtual world.

I’m sorry to bring you to a world that will grade you by the amount of money you have in your bank account, the degrees you hold, and your social status.

I’m sorry to bring you to a world that has corrupted governments, controlled world leaders. And a huge distinction between your civil, and human rights.

I’m sorry to bring you a world that will grade you by what family you belong to, what gender, and what your beliefs are.

I want to tell you that we had failed. We had failed in being civilized. We had failed in truly getting rid of our racism, sexism, grudges, and hate. Nationalism, and blind loyalty. Iliteralism, None-compassion, and judgmental ideologies. 

I want to tell you that we had failed to bring education to every individual. We even had failed in bringing basic needs, like food, water, shelter, and clothing.

I want you to know that I don’t expect you to read a book, while you are hungry for a loaf of bread.

I’m sorry because most of our society is sleeping, Drinking alcohol, doing drugs, partying, having many children without knowing who their fathers are. While focusing on their financial needs, they neglect nurturing you with their love, care, compassion, and human emotions  

I’m sorry because most of our society have many physical mothers, and fathers, but very few Mother, and Father true figures.

I’m sorry because most of our society is so focused on their own children, that if you happen to be born to a poor, uneducated, broken family, you are out of luck.

I’m sorry for the cracks in the political, and judicial systems.

I have faith that you will not have to write these words to children of your time. I have faith that you will change what we had ruined. I have faith in Humans, with a human heart. I know they’re out there, waiting to be touched!

Emotions 1-5-2015

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Hi. I have nothing to say. I just heard Johnny cough and it hurt my feelings. Johnny is roommate. I wish I can do anything to help him get rid of his cough. He is a computer programmer, and while he’s programing he is always smokes cigarettes, and I used to smoke too, and so I understand. It makes me happy that I quit two months ago, and it makes me sad that He is coughing. I do understand that he is an adult and he is not my responsibility, but I still felt hurt. I wish that everyone in the world will feel healthy. I felt a similar emotion when I was in barns and noble today. When I heard a child crying really loud. I felt my chest tearing apart. I felt scared and terrified. I felt terrorized.

I wish to always be in an area where it’s calm and gentle.